What happens when a broken childhood, parenthood, and the search for meaning all collide?

In this episode of The After The Fall Show, I sit down with Rob from Adeptus Psychonautica for a raw and thought-provoking conversation about childhood trauma, resilience, psychedelics, DMT, ayahuasca, mythology, spirituality, healing, and the search for a guiding star.

Rob shares how growing up in a deeply chaotic and abusive environment shaped his view of life, identity, and survival. We talk about the moment parenthood forced him to reflect on the kind of man he had become, and how that led him to revisit psychedelics not as escape, but as a tool for self-discovery and deeper introspection.

This episode explores profound experiences with DMT, the spiritual and philosophical impact of ayahuasca, the power of mythology, the meaning crisis in modern life, and why healing is not the same as simply having the experience. Rob also speaks honestly about the darker side of psychedelic work, the brutal nature of some healing journeys, and the importance of having a North Star so you do not lose your way.

If you have ever wrestled with trauma, identity, spirituality, meaning, or the question of what really changes a person, this conversation will stay with you.

In this episode we explore:

• childhood trauma and resilience

• becoming a parent and choosing change

• psychedelics as introspection, not escape

• profound DMT experiences

• ayahuasca, healing and difficult journeys

• mythology, spirituality and modern life

• healing versus simply having the experience

• why a guiding star matters

Find Rob on YouTube: Adeptus Psychonautica

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Chapters:
00:00 Introduction to the episode

00:30 Rob’s early life and broken upbringing

03:53 Finding normality in chaos

07:31 Becoming a parent and the need to change

10:37 Revisiting psychedelics with purpose

14:11 DMT and the profound spiritual experience

19:04 Meaning, mythology and the nature of reality

27:31 Love, connection and the maternal experience

29:08 Ayahuasca and deeper spiritual exploration

30:58 The difficult side of healing

33:56 Ayahuasca, purging and recovery

37:42 How the journey changed Rob as a parent

39:21 Self-discovery, healing and the work afterwards

41:07 Psychedelics, recovery and what people miss

43:46 Spiritual experience and human connection

47:04 The spiritual hole in modern society

51:59 Finding your North Star

57:40 Where to find Rob

The conversation delves into the themes of identity, self-sabotage, failing health, dialysis, recovery, faith, and purpose.

Zorosa shares her journey of overcoming self-sabotage, rapidly failing health including having to go through the process of organ donation and finding faith as she healed, and embracing her unique identity as a christian. Her story highlights the value of the recovery journey and the power of faith in finding purpose and healing.

Takeaways

• The value of the recovery journey
• The impact on identity and health to fit in
• Human resilience
• The power of faith and purpose

check out more on www.StreetTherapy.co.uk and check out Zorosa on her TikTok @Zorosacline and dont forget to follow the profile link on TikTok to her Youtube channel.

In this "After Dark" - Bonus Episode : Icarus discusses the concept of 'badges' and the impact they have on our lives, emphasizing the need to take a step back and focus on oneself in times of overwhelming stress and anxiety. He provides practical advice on managing the demands of various roles and responsibilities, advocating for a mindful and step-by-step approach to breaking the cycle of anxiety and trauma.

Takeaways

• The concept of 'badges' represents the various roles and responsibilities we carry, which can become overwhelming and stressful.
• Taking a step back, focusing on oneself, and prioritizing tasks mindfully can help break the cycle of anxiety and trauma.

Chapters

• 00:00 The Concept of 'Badges'
• 07:27 Breaking the Cycle of Anxiety and Trauma

After Dark the "After The Fall Show" after show. This a platform for reflection, knowledge sharing, and learning without a story. It aims to share street therapy, knowledge, wisdom, and learnings, while exploring the universal and individual aspects of life. The show also features specialists who provide support, guidance, and wisdom without being the person with the arc.

Takeaways

• Reflection and learning without a story
• Sharing street therapy, knowledge, and wisdom
• What we think by reaction isn't always the truth of what is happening
• We always have a choice in life to react in different ways. Not just the one our impulse and habits tell us to do
• Life often hide's behind the story we see and there is more than one lesson in any situation.

Chapters

• 00:00 Introduction to After Dark
• 05:27 Generational Consequences
• 12:43 Emotional Intelligence and Acceptance

The conversation delves into the personal journey of Moses, exploring the impact of childhood experiences, trauma, addiction, and recovery. It highlights the importance of seeking help, recognizing the need for change, and finding self-worth and healing through love and connection.

Takeaways

• Alcoholism and addiction can have deep roots in childhood experiences and family dynamics.
• Recovery and change require a shift in perspective and a willingness to seek help and support from others.

Chapters

• 00:00 Introduction to the Topic
• 06:20 The Impact of Trauma and Loss
• 11:28 Reaching the Lowest Point
• 18:31 The Turning Point and Recovery
• 26:07 The Journey to Self-Worth and Healing
• 32:19 The Power of Love and Connection
  
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  And if you wish to know more about Icarus and the "Street Therapy" mindset please check out our main site
  www.StreetTherapy.co.uk
  
  Also check out our Daily TikTok posts @Icarus_Works_uk and Moses at : @graceful_moses

What happens when grief does not just break your heart, but quietly changes your identity, your body and the way you move through life?

In this episode of The After The Fall Show, I sit down with Sarah, a holistic grief and trauma coach and the heart behind Embrace, for a raw conversation about grief, trauma, loss, burnout, healing and rebuilding after bereavement.

Sarah shares the story of losing her brother after years of illness, including MS and then cancer, and how that loss changed everything. We talk about anticipatory grief, the kind of pain that starts before a person is even gone, and what happens when trauma sits in the body long after life expects you to have “moved on”.

This conversation explores the hidden reality of grief: the years of survival mode, the hollow Groundhog Day feeling, the weight of burnout, and the slow process of rebuilding through boundaries, movement, self-care, nervous system healing and purpose.

If you have ever lost someone, felt stuck in grief, struggled with trauma, or wondered whether healing is really possible, this episode is for you.

In this episode we explore:

• grief after losing a sibling

• anticipatory grief and identity loss

• trauma in the body

• burnout after bereavement

• nervous system healing and grounding

• self-care and small recovery steps

• boundaries, toxic people and change

• moving forward and finding release

Chapters:

00:00 Introduction

00:19 Meet Sarah

00:59 When grief began before the loss

01:49 Cancer, shock and losing her brother

03:52 Survival mode and five years of drifting

06:00 Burnout, work stress and the turning point

06:48 Turning pain into purpose

09:37 What rebuilding actually looked like

11:17 Small wins, self-care and recovery

12:05 Boundaries and cutting out toxic people

14:43 Training as a grief and trauma coach

15:25 Trauma in the body and the nervous system

16:55 Breathing, grounding and healing tools

19:20 Why many people seek grief help years later

20:14 Different forms of grief and hidden pain

22:32 Sarah’s message to anyone struggling

23:52 Where to find Sarah

24:21 Final reflections on healing and hope

If you want to know more about Sarah and her services, check out her profile:

https://linktr.ee/Embrace_urjourney

If you have a journey to share, contact us at:

www.AfterTheFallShow.com

To learn more about the Street Therapy framework created by Icarus through his own recovery journey, visit:

www.StreetTherapy.co.uk